Last Quarter of 2006

I was trying to understand what is Value painting, reflective light or atmosphere lighting. Still the struggling stages to understand how to paint faster & efficiency. In fact, i still don't understand how to paint in B&W and before applying the exactly color that i want to have. Psst...

CGTALK CHALLENGE : The Journey begins (2006)

Hell+'0', this is the most serious painting for year 2006. It was for the Cgtalk-The journey begins challenge. Badly i couldn't managed to post the Final Image on time. It was a terrible storm day. A very loud thunder stroke my modem. Arrrgh~!... And it was the 2nd times horrible storm rain at Malacca after 20 years. How 'Lucky' i am.

This painting took me 1 weeks something. Hee.. Yeah, i know i am dat slow. I tried the best i could delivered. I forced myself to finish this due to i felt so bad i couldn't complete a previous Cgtalk challenge. So, never start up something you couldn't afford to lose. Maybe this is personal's behaviour. Not everyone will feel so bad bout being "irressponsibility".
(photoshop CS + wacom)

What happaned between year 2005 to 2006?!

Ok I gotta record something between year 2005 to year2006. It would be better to let me flashback after 10 years or something. Maybe i am writing these to people thought i was slacking or bitching for that period. I couldn't achieve any new level in art if i don't sacrify my years especially in financial. Gosh... What a hell i couldn't think bout entertainment & lock myself in front of PC to keep learning to paint. Hee.. it was fun and the pain is necessary. This is a major turning point to my art-life due to blindly keep working for no purposes over the past years. So whoever don't understand me. You are certainly not yet into the path i walked on now. So, marching on, pals!

After left the company, i studied Zbrush & XSI throught video tutorial. Almost half of a year i spent into that. Unfortunately, i still couldn't modelling something to proud of. And it is too extreme & advance to me. Well, i was trying to model a human. The toughest subject & prohibition in beginner's level. It will fail your confidence very easily. Yes, it failed me. And, it was a fun trip. At least i understand what are the major flow in modelling, texturing & lighting. After that, i got into Maya due to much easier to find video tutorial to study. I love working in Maya despite the Rendering system is not much appealig to me comparing to XSI. After that, i explored more into video editing(again) & very excited to explore Adobe After Effects too. It is a wonderful tools.

After a plenty of trial & error in Maya, i decide to study the basic & foundation of Art. It could saves alot of effort to tweak & pull the vertices in the modelling. So, i decided to drop out 3D applications until i mastering my Art foundation especially Human Anatomy. Well, i was actually learnt 2D + 3D at the same year. I couldn't hacked both at the same while.

Haha..and i watched alot of movies to gain back 2 years of entertainment loneliness during working years. Dat's it. I even addict into TV series. Dat's unhealthy. Lucky i don't addict much into gaming. Anyway, i finished GOW. haha.. The first PS2 game i wanted to complete it!

Yeah, i almost forgotten my PC SPOILT. And i almost lost hopes. It was my only working machine. My worst Chinese New year of my life.
Thx to my sista to sponsor on a new rig. Thx to the technician who burned the processor. THX SO MUCH!

And i got a few job offers. And there was one opportunity to be concept artist but i was poorly in human anatomy. Haha. I want to be rounder artist; at least handle the solid painting + drawing skills.

Random doodling in the Earlier quarter of 2006. I know it's crap. It was a crappy year to me.

Random doodling in year 2006.
I tried to find the fastest way to render color. Blending & smooothing technique was my biggest concern. Frankly, I don't know what i was trying to do paint efficiency in the almost 2 years i got my wacom. I just keep painting everyday & every hours to explore something new. I've got no mood to look for proper job until i found the essense in painting digitally. It was a thoroughly depression in every paintings i had done in year 2006. I don't want to rely on Mood to paint. I need to achieve a robotic & natural sense to paint correctly & efficiency. It is hard to control a mind to be that strong & discipline. Wooo.. A hard year indeed. I couldn't forgot i cried in front of my dad which i failed to paint better. (Hee...It was a bloody nightmare. The worst & remorse dream i ever have. Gosh..this pressure could kill my soul anytime!)

(photoshop CS + wacom)

First Wacom Painting(2005)

Yay! My brother & I went to Singapore for Wacom Tablet. If not mistaken, i went for Slipknot concert as well. And this was done after doodling wacom 2 months.

Took me 2 weeks. Pretty long hours unless it didn't hurt my shoulder & wrist like hell much anymore. Human Anatomy is my worst subject. I can only draw DRAGONBALL style all these years. haha..This is a nightmare to me indeed. Dat's the major drawback i need to improve. And how i couldn't get a concept artist's job convincingly.

Dat's alot of theorically mistakes going on in this piece. Well, let's carry on.

This was inspired by a rockband called 'Twilight Singers'. The song is called Feather.


'No wind, no rains, no conversation,
Will bring me back, alive,
Waving in the wind like feathers,
feel you near me, dissapearing.
If you take, you better kill me'
(photoshop CS+wacom)-Special thx to PK, my younger brother~!

CGTALK CHALLENGE : Master & Servant (2005)

Can you actually believe this is my 2nd Digital painting? Seriously i hate the struggling & exhausted to paint with mouse after went through the Mechiflesh experience. So, withint 2 year i did nothing seriously to finish any paintings.
This was actually done while i was ready to lose job again.

This one took me 2 weeks. It was a very last minute decision and left 2 weeks to deadline. I was tried to paint as good as it can look at. I was painted from 8pm till 3am or even 5am for almost every single days. I had to steal little times to "sneak painting" in working hour to finish this too. This mouse painting almost broke my shoulder & wrist. It was a maximum pain i don't want to repeat. This gotta Thanx to everything that depressed me so much if not i won't be able to finish this piece of important artwork in my life.
(photoshop CS+mouse)

CGTALK CHALLENGE : MECHIFLESH (2003)

So, this is my first digital artwork. It seems very messy. It was for the Cgtalk Mechiflesh contest back to the year 2003 or somewhere. I wouldn't care anymore. Yet it is one of the most important artwork i ever struggling so hard to finish it. It took me two weeks after every working days's night hour. (photoshop 5 + mouse)